02 December 2017

tis the season

Our mantel holds an extra stocking this year. This stocking perfectly fits little J's fun loving personality. Sometimes I find myself looking at it wondering what we will feel when we unpack our stockings out of the Christmas box next year and come to J's stocking. Will this new addition hang on our mantel again for another Christmas? Or will we be flooded with memories and emotions when we see it?

As traditions unfold and memories are made during the holiday, I am becoming more aware of how temporary this relationship is meant to be. This child has a stocking that belongs on another mantel, in another home, full of its own traditions and memories to be made. I look at her stocking and pray for the home that it will be hanging in next year; may there be healing and peace.

letters to santa

Is Maya a sweetie pie or what? No requests for Santa (or anyone), just happy to be surprised.

Dane's list involved telling santa about our beautiful Christmas tree and requesting more decorations for it.

He has become the guardian of our tree and has challenged himself to perfecting it by rearranging ornaments and created additions...daily, hourly. "But santa will be so happy," he reminds me as I begrudgingly help him create more "crimp-sauce" decorations. Ahh my adorable, orderly little dude.

Enjoying some more Christmas fun this weekend :).

14 November 2017

discovering beauty

We are almost 5 months in our life as a foster family!

We have had challenges and victories, some members of the family immediately falling in love and some reluctant to let an outsider in (specifically the one losing baby status), and mostly our home has doubled in love and chaos. Living in the "maybe" and unknown status of this beautiful child in our life has been easier than I anticipated. Some days I am flooded with emotion over the weight of the situation, the heartbreak, and the healing that needs to take place for all parties involved. However, most days we just live with the joy, curiosity, and frustration another toddler brings. There is something beautiful about the simplicity of the daily grind, full of all these little moments that keep us going - early morning cuddles, our littles *finally* both agreeing to a big hug, three giggling kiddos during a tickle fight, or feeling a sleepy toddler relax a little more into my shoulder each day as I carry her to bed.

When we look down at her big gorgeous eyes and sweet, silly smile we know we are right where we are meant to be today and that's all that matters.

31 October 2017

say hello to butterfly, cat, and rudolph

Trick or treat seemed to finally click for Maya and Dane this year. Maya confidently approached each house. Dane very matter of factly stated after each house: "Dad, we will still have more trick or treating to do." And J quickly followed suite once she realized candy was involved.

09 July 2017

all aboard!

The Dane train birthday party...choo choo!

We had a great day celebrating this handsome, silly 3 year old. His day began waking up in Oma and Opa's RV in our backyard and ended with a party at the Train Depot, complete with a train ride for all his favorite people.

The extra attention and love was just what this little man needed. Happy birthday, Dane, my little boy, who can quietly play trains and cars for hours on end, who loves a good cuddle, and who can also pull out some serious silliness! We love you, buddy!

06 July 2017

hello, little j

Even though we have been preparing for this moment for over a year, we were in complete shock when the call came and we were asked if we could take a placement. After a quick freak out, yesterday we said "yes" to a beautiful little girl. We are all so excited to have her as a part of our family for as long as she is meant to be with us.

She's already jumped right in playing with Maya and Dane (hence the dirty little legs and feet, a sign of a good Summer morning, right?).

My heart breaks for her and simultaneously is beaming with love as our empty crib takes on life and is now filled with giggles and tears and everything in between. Life isn't fair, but we sure are the lucky ones who get to know and love this sweet, little soul for the next days, weeks, months, years, come what may.

29 May 2017

wishes do come true

Maya starts planning her next birthday the day after her current birthday, so it's been a year in the making. We work our way through a variety of themes. It went from My Little Pony to Rudolf the Red Nose Reindeer to her final choice of Shimmer and Shine. Her dad and I were big fans of the Rudolf theme, but we get NO say in the details of this well thought out day.

This year the wish was a pogo stick and a big girl bike.

And like her birthday theme, her wish was all of our commands (thanks to yard sales...lucky for all of us 6 year olds don't get the difference between new and second hand).

You keep life fun, Maya Roz Boz. You keep life moving. And you certainly keep life full of love.

Happy 6th birthday! We love you!